aftermath

survival of the fittest this weekend
the brothers (3 of 4) arrive with families in tow
entertaining the kids (10: aged 14 - 28) with
good food, non-stop conversation and an edgewise jamboree.
i now realize people operate at different velocities
if you want to participate you have to keep up
to get maximum satisfaction the majority should be
heading in the relatively same direction ALL at the SAME PACE.
otherwise tension ensues. tempers flare. drinking retards bicker
emotions stream down the faces of loved ones
but mostly you wonder how you belong to such a large, meandering, disfunctional family unit when all you are really after is a calm and considerate partner, who isn't too busy dying.
lunch with old friends later in the week
I could have been better prepared
had there been a better plan
go for it
happy birthday mum

the power of now

Sacrifice
Willing to Die
Coalesce as a Team
Take care with the everyday Things you Know
Move beyond the common good
seal the deal
Go
Do
Be

Become
Read - Realize
Write - Create
Intend - Produce
Focus - Capture

Tango

beauty stares at those who wink
i get dizzy
talent bows to those who think
i get dizzy
luck happens to those who plan
i just get drunk
happines eludes the man
who drinks
only to get busy

saturn is a blue green light
in the deep dark nighttime sky
luna is a homely moon
who sings of days gone by


make no mistake
there is a choice
and a time to choose
waiting for my day to come is such the fatal ruse

go quietly into the night
speak only good of others
each new day awakens to
the song of expectant mothers

Man plans, God Laffs

i have begun,
therefore,
i need a vacation.

shituation at home is soooo stressful.
inlaws / outlaws - they all want a piece of your peace. healing begins with quiet, rest, breath, stretch, massage.
not talk, talk, threaten, accuse, demand, query, absolve, dismay, confuse, predict, opine.
So I lapse into unreasonableness and blame the dog. I need to get out and move,
I instead plan the next move.
only 3 things are real:
1 living in the material world
2 dieing one day at a time
3 loving the ones you are with

time to post before some unscheduled maintenance cuts me down in mid sentence

Procrastination

It never ceases to amaze me. How I can get up, eat, shower, dress, go to work and fiddle about until the time comes to go home, and eat and undress and sleep. What is accomplished? What astounding revelation have I uncovered from the trove of information that is the internet. When do questions sidestep into rhetoric. How do linguists deal with poor grammer, loose syntax, absent punctuation.

Work stares back at me. I am alone in a crowd of underacheivers.

At least i reflect on my slow progress. every day I waste is lost. rescue me.

just a little spoonful of your lovin

I thought I had been kissed. But that was before I met you.

New ways to Waste Time

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

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