contemplating divorce

Having been together for a few years (since 1981) my beautiful wife and I have argued once too many. Not that often but the same words get tossed around like soiled sheets.
If it bothers you so much, why don't you just leave. I have only you to blame. You need to give me 200% or else. Who am I kidding - I could care less. go on, be that way. which do you choose?
it's not something you can easily talk about.
Why bother. I don't care. you've changed. doh!

ipoddercasting nano nano

I return to the blog-o-sphere because I cannot sleep. there is no time on-line. but there is a time-line. Dashes fool the spell checker. The fool fool spell checker.
glimpsing the moments of now of others. reliving the now as a comment to others. revisiting the moments that memory can't replace. feeding the dog with faulty logic.

the wedding has been canceled, so too the pending operation. promises to be vigilant, attentive, caring, sensitive, have all been nullified. by what? by whom? why not? when!? how now chow sow cow bow stern
stow crow low mow row tow flow bow arrow - and on and on it goes. nonsense and a timeless sense of awareness.

just try commenting on that!

Posting from home

A dangerous precedent. I whole new hard drive of images to post. thoughts are quieter than audio files. ideas are not as clear as videos. but I will soon begin to post both in order to embrace the new media.

Social networking has not caught fire, my life weaves in and out on the outskirts, the wind rows of a plowed field.

I'm a 44 on the Dr Phil 10 question personality / perception quiz. neither pass nor fail, it appears I am friendly. faithful as a dog. and rather pleasant to piss on...

the clock spins around past the midnight hour. Boo boo sleeps fitfully on her bed of sheets and blankets in the office next to the hum of the hard drive of the computer that never sleeps and is always looking back at you.

the mackie mixer is giving me fits with it's multipurpose aux 1 and 2 buss architecture (doing double duty for effects and monitor mix & the control room fader which refuses to cue the effects even with the proper combination of buttons depressed. no matter, I will never begin to use it for room recordings until I get out of the basement.